There is sadness. Then there is the type of sadness that knocks you of your feet. The type that engulfs you in a single moment. The type that makes your heart palpitate so hard it aches your chest, hallows out your stomach and hastens your breath. So much so every breath seems harder than the last and you forget what it was like to breath without thinking. And yes there are moments where you can hold your breath and clutch you're numbed hands so tight that the pain momentarily subsides but for the most part it returns. Maybe not at that very moment but eventually. Sometimes when you least suspect, just when you think you are happy. There are many names for whatever it is but It lingers only to disappear with true acknowledgement that the situation has happened and belief that the only way to move, is forward.